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[06 Apr 2006|03:27pm] |
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One of these days
You'll break me, of many things
Some cold, white day
But you're crazy if you think I would leave you
This way....
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| Bend all your notes for me. |
[22 Mar 2006|03:36am] |
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March 2, Howie asked me to be his girlfriend. Again.
Once before this has happened. July 11, 2003.
That date striked a match and set
the fire that would burn
for 2 years, 7 months and 19 days in the fiery pit of my heart.
Or something dramatic like that.
I am in LOVE!
Equal opposites. Symmetry... I have found it.
Or more like captured. I always knew he had it.
Through these times, denial and scandalous affairs were my friends inbetween.
Indulgement to distract. I nearly fooled myself.
I thought I could find another, but in the back of my mind the memory sat patiently.
Am I rambling? I love who I am with him.
Today he unexpectedly walked into my room. His mood was vibrant.
Mine: the opposite.
Yesterday I fell back on doubt; considering breaking up with him for no reason other than... I wanted to live without him. See if I can make it for a day. or 2. or 3.
Can I last a week?
I am scared of his power over me. I will do any thing for his sake. I believe he is perfect.
Tonight he suggested we look at our horoscopes...
Gemini Tue Mar 21: Technicolor Emotions
The Moon lights up your seventh house of marriage and partnerships, clashing with macho Mars in Gemini. Passions run high for better or for worse, so be prepared for technicolor emotions to wash over you. Even if you are calm and serene, your mate, best friend, or business partner is likely to be experiencing overwhelming feelings. You can use this energy to become closer, but handle it with care. Propitious colours are cool violet and coral. Lucky numbers are 1 and 7.
Sagittarius Tue Mar 21: Emotional Rebirth
The Moon in Sagittarius boosts your personality, giving you a sense of emotional rebirth. It will be easier to express yourself today, especially in your personal relationships. Romantic energies are hot, hot, hot! However, as the night goes on you may become a bit too intense for your own good. The approach of the adventurous Moon to potent Pluto in your sign may make your emotions seem almost overwhelming, but also bring the opportunity for personal transformation. Alluring colours are bright red and deep green. Lucky numbers are 1 and 5.
Can our horoscopes be any more perfect? Can our SIGNS be any more PERFECT?
Gemini+Sagittarius. My equal opposite :]
HE IS EVERYTHING I WANT! No more boys with missing pieces to add to my puzzle collection. I am proud. My love is proud.
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| I CAN DIE HAPPY. |
[10 Dec 2005|03:12pm] |
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BREAK ON THROUGH!!!! |
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Thank you for using Ticketmaster.
You have ordered 2 tickets to : Riders On the Storm
[Riders on the Storm - led by founding members RAY MANZAREK and ROBBY KRIEGER plus singer IAN ASTBURY, known for his rich baritone voice in the Cult. The group is rounded out by Phil Chen on bass and Ty Dennis on drums.]
@ The Fillmore, San Francisco, CA
Thursday December 15, 2005
8:00 P.M.
Seat location: section GENADM
Total Charge: $125.75
CHARLINE & I ARE TO GOING TO SEE THE DOORS!!!!!!!!!
50 YEARS OF ROCK AND ROLL, BABY.
This is a magical moment right here...
Casey, I'm HORRIBLY sorry you have to miss this! It is a tragedy :[
I LUH YOU!!
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[09 Dec 2005|06:43pm] |
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ANDREW W.K. | SHE. IS. BEAUTIFUL. |
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MY FACE IS BACK TO NORMAL!!!!
I FEEL PRETTY :]
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[09 Dec 2005|06:34pm] |
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ANDREW W.K. | PARTY TILL YOU PUKE!!!! |
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SAUCEY CROTCH: NEXT TIME WE GET TOGETHER
SAUCEY CROTCH: FAKE BLOOD
SAUCEY CROTCH: BEERS
SAUCEY CROTCH: ANDREW W.K. TRIBUTE PICTURES
SAUCEY CROTCH: YOU GOT THAT!?
ILuffTetris: FUCK THAT
ILuffTetris: I SAY
ILuffTetris: WE TAKE THE PINTS OF BLOOD FROM THE BLOOD DRIVE
SAUCEY CROTCH: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHA
Oh dear...
♥
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| I feel good about this... |
[07 Dec 2005|01:34am] |
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You are now scheduled to Donate Whole Blood.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005 at 3:30 PM
Longs Drugs Sommerville
2511 Sommersville Road
Antioch, CA 94509
Eat a healthy meal or snack and drink lots of fluids before donating blood.
This e-mail was sent to me by the Red Cross. On December 27th, Charline and I are donating a pint of blood each to save lives. Give the gift of life and join us. :]
In order to donate, you must be 17 years of age or older, weigh at least 110 lbs. and be in general good health.
Consider these reasons:
1. You will get free juice and cookies.
2. You will weigh less — one pint less when you leave than when you came in.
3. It only takes about an hour.
4. It's something you can spare — most people have blood to spare... yet, there is still not enough to go around.
5. Nobody can ask you to do any heavy lifting as long as you have the bandage on. You can wear it for as long as you like. It's your badge of honor! :D
6. You will walk a little taller afterwards — you will feel good about yourself.
7. You will be helping to ensure that blood is there when you or someone close to you may need it. Most people don't think they'll ever need blood, but many do.
8. It's something you can do on equal footing with the rich and famous — blood is something money can't buy. Only something one person can give to another.
9. You will be someone's hero — you may give a newborn, a child, a mother or a father, a brother, or a sister another chance at life.
In fact, you may help save up to three lives with just one donation.
Interested? www.givelife.org
Please check it out.
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| HAPPY HALLOWEINER...? |
[31 Oct 2005|03:42pm] |
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I just woke up. I have a midterm in 3 hours I need to study for. My boyfriend just called to make sure I'm studying for it. Gosh, I've never liked someone so much. He amazes me. I've never felt like this. ♥
I haven't written in centuries, but I just had a dream that struck a responsive chord in me.
An arrangement of weird things happened in it. I was wearing a green and yellow sequined mask. I colored my lips and my right eye orange. Many vivid colors.
The most frightening thing was my left ear fell off. I freaked out and was trying to get someone to take me to the hospital. I never made it to the doctor before I woke up. I thought it was fucking REAL.
So out of curiosity, I decide to connect a meaning by looking at a dream dictionary. I don't necessarily confide in these, but how strange is this?
"To see ears in your dreams, suggests that you need to be more responsive or receptive to guidance and assistance from others. You may be relying too much on your own judgment and intuition. You need to listen more closely to what you are being told. Alternatively, it signifies your immaturity and lack of experience.
To dream of pain in your ear, indicates that you will be receive some bad or offensive news."
Sadly, I agree. I fucked up last night. Big time. And I hope to God I don't reap the consequences. I'm just not used to this...
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[11 Jul 2005|02:29am] |
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Mama, take this badge off of me
I can't use it any more.
It's getting dark, too dark to see
I feel I'm knocking on Heaven's door.
Knock knock knockin' on Heaven's door,
Knock knock knockin' on Heaven's door.
Mama, put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them any more.
That long, black cloud is comin' down
I feel I'm knocking on Heaven's door.
I am so incredibly thankful for my life. I love my BFF. And beer. And good Samaritans. The Rook. But most of all.... second chances. ♥
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| SHAKE YO BRAIDZ. SHOW YA GOLD. |
[28 May 2005|04:07pm] |
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Firstly, I'd like to thank those of you that wished me a Happy Birthday yesterday. It meant a lot to me. Casey made my present in photography. She gave me prints of photos she had taken throughout the school year and put lyrics to some of our songs on it. She even framed one with the lyrics to Wish You Were Here on it. I love her. It was one of the most heartfelt presents I've ever received. :]
Last night Casey and I got drunkface. Holiday hooked us up once again. Ahah. Luv tha brotha.
We killed a bottle of Chandon champagne, a 40 of Mickey's, with some 151 on the side. The night was slow until 12, when Joseph, Nick, Joel, Josh & his boys showed up. Joel and I had a moment. It was cute. :D
( They only want you when you're SEVENTEEN, when you're TWENTY-ONE... you're no fun. )
This morning I had to be up at 9:30 to start my job working at the Rib Factory/Sugar Barge @ 11:30, but didn't wake up until 10. That kicked my ASS. I was all dehydrated and gross and had insuffient time to get ready. That matters ESPECIALLY cos half my job description is looking cute. I'm the HOSTESS WITH THA MOSTESS, yA hEArRrd?
I had to drive like a maniac there, but made it fine. I seriously thought I was going to be trained a little more in-depth, but Keith is a busy man so I basically had to figure shit out on my own. I think I'm a quick learner, if I do say so myself. Charline said she was impressed with my performance. That gave me some confidence. I started on a BUSY-ass weekend.
There were 2 other new girls that trained with me today, too. Paige, who is a total sweetheart, and Shannon whom I met in the bathroom at Senior Ball. :D
We have a nice little staff. Except I guess we're all ganging up on Rachelle and trying to get her fired. I had to answer like 8372638 phone calls for her today. K NO.
And HOMIGOSH, K STORY TIME.
So, in the 8th grade when I was attending Holy Rosary muthafuckin' Catholic school, I got suspended. For SEXUAL HARASSMENT.
One day after school my friends and I were talking about masturbation, and basically this kid walked by and we decided to tease him about beatin' the meat & like, interrogating him to see if he'd wanked it before. AHAH.
WHY I THOUGHT THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA AT THE TIME? I COULDN'T EXPLAIN.
His older sister was in my class, and Lauren Whalen = snooty rich preppy fat bitch. K?
Well, her ass got me suspended and WHUTSUP? FIRST DAY WORKING, HER FAMILY TROTS IN. LOL@LIFE.
I filled Stephanie in [the waitress serving their table] and she told me they totally recognized me and that she overheard Lauren go 'THAT'S THE GIRL. hOMigOSsHh!%!@#&'
:D;D:dD:DD;D:d
I worked from 11:30 to 9 today. 9 and a half muthafuckin' hours, bro. FIRST DAY. SUP@OVERTIME. I'm getting $8 an hour as it is. I'mma be ROLLIN'. Not to mention, I get to eat whatever I want for free and take food home.
I don't have my workshirt yet, but I told Keith I wanted a lil' pink one cos some of them are GROSS. He was like 'Oh fHo ShO gUrRL. I'mma get you pink & it's gonna be like 2 sizes TOO SMALL. You gotta show 'em WHUT U GOT. I'm thinking a 10/12... in kids sizes.'
Ahaha. I really thought he was kidding at first, but he wasn't. :O
Aww. I LUFFZ MY JOBBY. &CHARLINE. &GLOWSTICK EARRINGS. &KEIF BURKE &HIS RIBLETS. yAYayAYayAYaYA!!
MUTHAFUCKIN' REMIXxXXXx.
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[10 May 2005|03:17am] |
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"I hate having crushes"
"Well...unattainable ones..."
"Those are the only ones worth your time."
I ♥ Charline. :]
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[05 May 2005|02:15am] |
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Alright, so I'm bummed I'm going to miss out on Lynyrd Skynyrd this Friday. I HEXXA wanted to go to the Dixon Fair, get drunk, and enjoy some timeless rock n' roll.
THEN I FOUND OUT 
IS PLAYING NEXT MONTH. :D;dD;d;D:D:Dd
ALL SMILEZ.
The tickets are SO expensive. $69-$230. It's in a restaurant/vineyard thingy in Livermore.
FUGGIT. My dad is SUCH a rock star. He said he'd be willing to shell out the cash for the best seats, cos my birfday is coming up<3 I wanna be all UP in their grill. And then they'll invite me backstage to drink beer. Or wine, cos it's in a vineyard. I'm just THAT hot.
Front row status is available on Ticketmaster right now, cos they just went on sale. I need to find someone who will go with me. Not many people like Foreigner that much. :[
I think it'd be way fun. There's probably just gonna be a lot of old people there, but I'mma be a punk kid and go nUttTZz.
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GOSH, my sisters' science teacher is madd HOT. Today I went to pick them up, and he said "Hi" and kept looking at me. ;D:d;D:d:D
He's 27, but what the heck? I'd SO hit it. My sister told me that he originally wanted to be a math teacher at the school, but they already had one. Math skills are SUCH a turn on. UGhGhhHhH. Major swoonage<3
He will be mine. Oh yes, he will be mine.
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[21 Mar 2005|03:00am] |
Haha. I'm kEwL.
I just purchased a paid account for myself cos I was pissed you're not allowed more than 3 icons. So now I get all the neat VIP junk. I better start updating more or something. UH HUHHH. :D
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[01 Mar 2005|05:53pm] |
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WELL, I'M GOING TO THE BEACH WHERE I BELONG
DA NA NEER NEER NEER NEER NEER NEER NEER
WHERE THE DAYS ARE SHORT AND THE NIGHTS ARE LONG
DA NA NErer ENeREeneR nERer ENre NEreRe nERr
AT THE SANTA CRUZ BEACH BOARD WALK
IN THE WARM CALIFORNIA SUN!
Yessssssss! March 11-12. FRIDAY NIGHT. Clair, Sarah and I have a hotel room booked at the Ocean Pacific Lodge in Santa Cruz. It's like a 10 second walk to the beach. I am TEARING apart my closet and selling shit on eBay to earn money to blow.
This trip = BLASTING CLASSIC ROCK ON THE CAR RIDE DOWN. SUNSHINE. BOOZE & MAGIC MUSHROOMS. FINE DINING. SHOPPING DOWNTOWN. CHURROS. TANNING. HUNGRY SEAGULLS & MACKIN' ON HOTTIEZ.
S T O K E D .
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I am so burnt out. I spent the weekend in Castro Valley, but I'll write about that later. It was a fucking blast.
In other news: I GOT MY LICENSE!%#!@
;DD:d:d;d:D:d;D:D
HECK YES<333
Me = ROCK. I'll be driving my dad's '97 Ford truck for a month or so, until I get my Chevelle [yes, I've changed my mind]. yAyAYAyYAya!!
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| Fuck This Shit. |
[03 Feb 2005|06:32pm] |
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Yeah, that's about right... :]
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THE COMPUTER THAT HAS SAT IN MY ROOM FOR A YEAR
THAT I DID NOT THINK WORKED
NOW MAGICALLY DOES???
THIS MAKES ME SUCH A HAPPY CAMPER.
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[13 Jan 2005|01:32am] |
I used to have a friend named Ed I met online when I was probably thirteen. I talked to him until I was fifteen, and since I was a loser with no life, I'd talk to him just about every day. I really got to know the dude, he even called me a few times when we were both bored stiff. I actually have a few online friends I've kept over the years. He was one of them.
I got to know his friend Zach too, who actually introduced me to good ol' Chuck Palahniuk when I was in 8th grade.
Anyway, I hadn't spoken to either of them for a long while. I figured Ed must have gotten over the whole internet thing, or lost his connection, or got a new screen name or something... right?
Well, today Zach signed on and...
BurntDownWorld: yeah im eds friend
BurntDownWorld: who are you?
saucey crotch: I used to talk to you on GoodbyexBluexSky, I think.
saucey crotch: Sound familiar or no?
BurntDownWorld: yeah
BurntDownWorld: it does
saucey crotch: Well, hi. :D
saucey crotch: Where's Ed been these days?
BurntDownWorld: hey
BurntDownWorld: oh
BurntDownWorld: im so sorry you havent heard
saucey crotch: ...
BurntDownWorld: ed crashed his motorcycle on his way home form school on the 18th of dec. 2003
BurntDownWorld: he didnt make it to the hospital
saucey crotch: Shut the fuck up?
BurntDownWorld: i would never lie about one of my childhood friends
BurntDownWorld: not about this anyways
saucey crotch: Um... are you serious?
BurntDownWorld: im really sorry you never heard
saucey crotch: So like, homeboy's dead?
BurntDownWorld: for more than a year
BurntDownWorld: i couldnt believe it either
BurntDownWorld: i just got a phone call one night
saucey crotch: STOP.
saucey crotch: May I have proof?
BurntDownWorld: i kept his obituary...im sure you could find it on the St. Petersburg, Fl Times website
saucey crotch: Link me, please? :[
BurntDownWorld: you got it hold on
BurntDownWorld: Archives: St. Petersburg Times
BurntDownWorld: this was published the day after
BurntDownWorld: im really sorry
saucey crotch: Oh my God
saucey crotch: :[
saucey crotch: That is so fucking nuts
saucey crotch: I'm really sad to hear that...
saucey crotch: and especially sad that it's been a year.
saucey crotch: What the fuck
saucey crotch: You know, I talked to him a lot
BurntDownWorld: i remember
BurntDownWorld: i havent gone back to FL since i heard
saucey crotch: You didn't go to his funeral?
BurntDownWorld: i couldnt do it
BurntDownWorld: theres no way i could see him like that
saucey crotch: It was open casket????
BurntDownWorld: yes
BurntDownWorld: see
BurntDownWorld: the article doesnt say it but..
BurntDownWorld: his bike crushed him up against the fence his chest was what got damaged bad enough to kill him not his face
saucey crotch: Fuck
BurntDownWorld: im sorry
saucey crotch: Aww, he was such a cute boy.
saucey crotch: So sweet.
saucey crotch: :[
BurntDownWorld: i loved him
saucey crotch: Man. I'm so sorry.
BurntDownWorld: all my friends that still live down there are still having such a hard time
BurntDownWorld: well im so sorry that you hadnt heard
BurntDownWorld: but ed was happy
BurntDownWorld: always
BurntDownWorld: he lived an awesome life
BurntDownWorld: all we can do is remember
BurntDownWorld: make sure not to forget dec. 18th
saucey crotch: Yeah, I definitely won't.
saucey crotch: I'll light a candle for him next year or something.
saucey crotch: :[
BurntDownWorld: thatd be awesome
BurntDownWorld: well i think im gonna run out of here
saucey crotch: Alright, add me.
BurntDownWorld: just did
saucey crotch: Take it easy, Zach.
BurntDownWorld: i will
BurntDownWorld: you do the same
Really, I am so sad to hear that. I didn't realize I knew him that well, because I recognized everything they mentioned in that article. Ed had such a gentle soul. He even introduced me to the band MSD, which was one of my favorite bands for a while, and a buttload of other metal bands most people have probably never heard of. I really wish I could have had the pleasure of meeting him before he died. He was badass. Dang.
♥
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